I think I stole your good mood - sorry.

After all my moping around I finally sat down and wrote myself a  little schedule. I still have ample freetime, but I have some definite requirements set up for the time that I do have scheduled. This morning I woke up at six and jogged up to school. Or at least tried. It's only about a seven-minute jog, but uphill is uphill even if it don't look it. I then lifted, went to work, skipped my class, and worked on NURBS modeling until noon. Then it was home again for two hours of games and then the dishes and then up to an Allies on Campus meeting. Finally, I'm back up here at work. Day's almost done. It's astonishing how much energy working out gives you. I haven't even been tempted to be in a bad mood today.

Of course, I consciously avoided chatting online. I've decided that I'm actively not dating - a sensational choice because then I don't have to put any pressure on myself to date. I don't have to be nice to people that bore me, I don't have to browse through a thousand profiles that only serve to make me body conscious, and I don't have to chat! It's so strange that our society puts such enormous pressure on dating. You never really realize it until you decide that, hey, you don't like dating - and you know what - you're not going to date. Ever.

Dating is just plain a bad idea. You are immediately forced to spend time with a person that you may or may not like. Then, if you're like me and actively dislike anyone who's trying to get you to like them, most dates end up an absolute waste of time. Much better to like a person before dating them - doubly so with the penchant gay men have for sleeping with each other on the first date. That's also out the window. People can just stuff having sex with me.

Oh - and what I started this blog to say, is that I've discovered a super-constructive way to keep arguements from turning into fights. Well, we all have problems with each other and sometimes we adress those problems. Most often, unfortunately, this happens when we are riled already. When this is the case, we forget that the person causing the problem and the problem itself are two completely separate things. Thus, we attack the person, who we may love, instead of the problem.

This happens on the recieving end too - so often! We're trained to argue by attacking the person rather than the problem so it always sounds like we're attacking the person even when we're not really meaning to. The receptive person has a choice. They can either take the attack for what it is - an attack focused on them because the other person views the problem as a part of who they are - or the receptor of the attack can realize that the problem Isn't Part of Their Identity, and realize that the attacker is only talking like it is. Then, the receptor can either bring this fact to their attacker's attention, or just let it slide and be understanding.

This is what I learned from talking to Kalli that one day a few blogs ago. We accept our mistakes as part of our identity when they're really not - that's why we get defensive when someone adresses them.

Oof. Well, that's all for tonight. I still have about three hours of sitting around to do, but I'd really rather not ramble on forever. Take care ya'll, and Good Night!