I'm so numb.

It's 4.48AM, and i'm still at my office.

Today has been the worst day of the worst week of my life.

First, my senior (you know, the one who dumped everything for me to do?) got sacked beginning of this week (OMG......coz appearantly the management thinks she wasn't performing, which in a way is quite true..she's an Account Manager, for goodness sake...) Then, i had to handle every freaking thing by myself.

All 7 Accounts, and 2 more Accounts that i so 'incidently' had to take over because the person who was handling that account left. Okay-fine!!

I've been working here for about a month, and I'm still a junior, and furthermore I'm not very used and sure of the procedures here and all, and still the stupid management isn't getting someone to help me!! How can i handle all 9 Accounts by myself??

I tell you how!!!

BY WORKING TILL 5 IN THE FUCKING MORNING!!!!

For ONE freaking account, i took a fucking 5 exhausting hours to do because the stupid clients in that stupid company is so freaking stupid and so freaking slow that they need freaking 4 hours to freaking approve one freaking Ad!!

Because i was rushing for 6 freaking ads for them (which i proudly managed to it all by myself to meet the deadline today) i pushed away all my other tasks. I didn't had the time to have a decent meal, or rather - anything to eat (my last meal was at 12PM) All i did the whole day today was rushing in and out from the office for meetings after meetings, getting screwed by everyone, calling the fucking stupid clients every 10 minutes and fucking them because they were taking so fucking long to do one simple thing.

And to make matter worst, the things that i was rushing for isn't even my account. It's one of the stupid account which i was forced to take over!!

Can you believe it??

The fucking guts the management has to do this to me!! Can't they open their fucking eyes and see i'm fucking dying here??!!!!!

You know, i don't know why sometimes some people can be so shockingly stupid. As in really, really stupid. They ask me stupid questions until i had to think properly if i got the question right. I feel so stupid when they ask me stupid questions, make me feel like i'm more stupid than them. Which can't happen.

Have you ever heard of this question - "Hey, you very busy ahhh??" when clearly and obviously you are. At that point, i'm already so freaking busy and trying to concentrate and when i heard my colleague asking me that, i don't know wether i should scream, laugh or cry.

Or when you already explained something to the client, on the phone and in an email and their confirmation for everything, and you're preparing to close the job, then they call you up and ask, "Why like this wan ah....."

I feel like.." OMG!!! WOMAN!! HAVE YOU BEEN LISTENING, OR PAYING ANY FUCKING ATTENTION TO ME WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU OR HAVE YOU READ MY EMAILS???!!!!!!!"

At 11 plus, when i finally finished with the 6 stupid ads, i just stared at my wall and my desk (and the huge stack of papers, files, tissues, cigeratte buds, cups, coffee stains and stationaries on my desk) I felt like crying, and screaming..and i don't know..just feel so damn fucked up..