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To be or not to be?

I've been suffering alot from writers block as of late. Part of it is self induced as I have been sulking quite a bit lately. The harder I try not to miss Inas the harder it is to forget about her and that's what I'm supposed to do right? I'm supposed to be strong and shake things off and move on with my life but it is so difficult at times. If it had been a bad relationship it would be so much easier to deal with but we were perfect for each other and that's just what I mean. There is no such thing as a perfect person but if at all possible find someone just as fucked up as you are and make that shit work. I've been searching for years and last year I stumbled across that person. I always seem to like people that don't like me or I have the unfortunate pleasure of having someone that I have no interest in hitting on me which occurs quite a bit now that I'm back out there working in the public. There is one girl that I've seen that I may want to try to ask out. She smiles at me a lot and she always seems to linger for a moment after I ring her up so that we can talk. I'm not sure if she's single or not yet and at the rate it's going now it may take a few months to get all the particulars together which I'm fine with since I think it would be wrong to take all of my baggage into a new relationship. I hate starting over but that's life right? Got to suck that shit up and roll with it. I wanted to marry Inas and start a family but sometimes shit don't work out like you plan. I guess it's time to come up with a new plan.